the things my daughter does..

A couple of days ago she was as close to crawling as you can get without actually crawling, but now she has started moving her legs independently of each other.. so I guess that makes it official! 

She has also started pulling herself up to a kneeling position in her crib and looking like she wants to vault over the side of it. Suppose that means it needs to be dropped again.

trying to get a job at bzzagent

I've spent quite a LOT of time over the past few weeks trying to get a job at bzzagent. They are running a contest of sorts. The first 8 weeks of it are very contest-y, but not in a random way.. then they will legitimately select (based on resumes, etc) one person out of the 8 for the job.

The first week I was literally about 2 minutes away from winning. I was first, first, first for so long. I stayed up til about 2am on the finally day. (the "winner" for the week was the top person at 9am) Then I just couldn't keep my eyes open anymore. I decided to take a little nap and set my alarm for 6am to keep going with it. Well I bolted awake at about 8:36am.. swearing! 

I "fought off" the number 2 person for about 20 minutes, but they were just posting links way way too fast and when I reloaded the ranking one final time at about 8:58.. she had passed me! Needless to say I was unbelievably upset.

I'm trying again this week.. but they have so many new rules each week, I don't know how much patience I have left with it. 

busy, busy, busy

I have been so busy with my daughter and just life in general that I haven't had much time to post here.

But.. there is some great great news for me. I FINALLY got a new computer. It's mine mine mine and I LOVE it!

i am reading..

Now I am reading I'd Trade My Husband For a Housekeeper. I saw it at BJ's, picked it up, and laughed at the "you need this book if.." on the back. ("You spend more time with Mr. Potato Head than your husband," "You rank sex below clipping your child's fingernails, calling your in-laws, and showering," etc) So, I had to buy it.

I don't know if it's totally for me, but there are some good points made within it. For instance.. "Being happy means making peace with your life, and not blaming your spouse for your losses. The harder you try to hold on to who you were before you had kids, the harder it is on the relationship."

And although it came first, I am looking forward to also reading I Was a Really Good Mom Before I Had Kids.

more on mother's day

If you want to know more about why my mother's day was the "worst mother's day ever"- I will elaborate only a little.

I got a card "from" my daughter and a framed picture of her. I tried to explain to my husband how much this first mother's day meant to me and how much I had been looking forward to it (and maybe a little show of appreciation for all I do and all I went through to bring said daughter into the world). The response I got made me more sad. So..

I took my daughter to the park and we watched the ducks for a little while, but it was a little too windy and we left. The woman at the drive thru at the bagel place (where I got my breakfast from) was the only person that day to wish me a happy mother's day.

Etc.

However, my parents sent me a card. And there cards from my grandmother and sister (and her family) waiting for me at the post office on Monday.. and that was nice.

mother's day

worst mother's day ever. 

that's all i'm saying.

more love for people

On my way home on Friday, a woman in a dark green car cut me off. I was going straight through a green light; when I got to the middle of the intersection.. this woman suddenly decided she was going to go left in front of me. I slammed on my brakes and the car behind me almost hit me. The woman in the dark green car flipped me off as she sped on her way. So.. ya, that's a new one.